Do you ever get frustrated about where you are in life because you felt like you would be in a much different place at this time? Or perhaps you know where you want to be and are getting impatient because it’s taking long so long to get there? Because hi yes hello, ME TOO.
Lately the majority of my hustle has gone towards school. *Insert major blah face here* While I am incredibly blessed to have the opportunity to attend college and earn my degree, ever since I launched my blog I’ve realized more and more that school is actually killing my vibes, haha.
In my perfect world I would be solely focused on kahleanicole.com. Growing my platform, hosting more events, doing excessive live videos (haha), styling more of my shoots, the works.
I’ve been so frustrated lately because I feel like I’m stuck at school (exactly where I don’t want to be) and getting set back in business (exactly what I want to be doing) because of it. Thus leading me to begin comparing myself to those around me and instead of giving myself grace, I get myself down.
I convince myself that I should be in a different place. That I could be doing more. That I’m not doing good enough with what I’m already handling on my plate.
I’ll spend hours scrolling through my feed tearing myself apart because I feel like it isn’t exciting and I’m not pushing myself creatively. I’ll spend days beating myself up for not getting a collab someone else got. I’ll spend nights crying feeling so stuck at school, but knowing I need to finish what I started.
I spend so much time letting the enemy speak lies into my heart instead of combating them with the truth of what God says about me and the calling He’s placed on my life.
So if you’ve ever felt any of these things or done anything similar, know that you’re not the only one. Know that I have days where I feel like an absolute trash ball and frankly that’s okay, haha. The issue arises when you start believing the lies and accepting them as truths.
Therefore, I have a little challenge for you. I want you to make a list of 3-5 things that you beat yourself up over. Then, next to those things I want you to write down the positive truths of them, as so:
- I’m not pushing myself creatively // I’ve styled many fun shoots before and I can do it again
- I didn’t land that collab // I landed xyz and I’m pretty proud of that
- I’m stuck at school // I’ll be done in a year and I’ve already been able to launch my business
I’ve noticed that whenever I stop for a second and give myself grace, instead of letting a lie seep into my being, I have a heart full of more peace, more joy, and more gratitude. So what are your positive opposites? Talk to me in the comments below!
I’m still on this little adventure of being patient (not my forte, unfortunately), but I’m thankful for what this season of pruning has taught me. I’ve grown more than ever and that’s definitely something I’m proud of.